Corner of my I

She’s quick with her tongue-

no pun intended.

Walking around no stress,

no limits.

What you’d do to have her,

but she’s not fond of guys.

You ask her,

when was the last time?

Curiosity is the game she played.

She takes hearts for granted,

and she’s never in shame.

You wasn’t her attraction,

yet she manipulated your mind,

A tongue full of lies,

and she ain’t wasting no time.

She likes to hang out in bars,

watch some girls sit pretty.

Former outcast, 

lost inside the realms of the city.

She can’t make up her mind,

so she sips more wine.

One lucky guy,

she say’s he’s a waste of time.

You see her in awe

of her remarkable beauty.

You watched as she gave,

and gave to a lie.

She’s told you these things before,

the words that made you cry.

You leave with your pride, and leave her in shame.

She’s the female lesbian,

and hasn’t changed her ways….

Self-indulgent,

I only care about me.

Only concerned

with my own destiny.

I’d like to care,

just once will do.

You know,

I never meant those words,

they were a false truth.

Typical me,

raging in jealousy.

Conflicted with the things

in front of me.

This man that I am,

selfish, indeed.

I placed my heart on a platter,

and I expected relief.

Instead, I remained,

just as cold as a can be.

Selfish I am,

and it’s got the best of me.

What if

for the moment

we escaped?

Away into a world

no regrets, no mistakes.

It’s the hurt of my pain

the drive in my brain

the awkward emotions

frustrations, they came.

In spite of my good,

in despair of my bad.

I’ve only got me

as a shelter,

no tear shed.

I escaped the moment

just for temporary

I never told anyone

no need to worry.

You’d think the unjustified reality

would make amends with my heart

I drew up this imagination

I played the part.

I escaped the norm,

just a moment in time.

A moment forever

I often rewind……..

So since I don’t have a blog as of yet. I will just post this to tumblr. I wonder why my life is the way it is. In the past I would blame my mistakes on my parents. I thought they were the reason I am who I am today. My parents were not there for me as they should. My mom died when I was young. And my father was around, he just was not there mentally for me. I am an adult now at 22 years of age trying to find myself in this maze they call life. It’s almost as if I keep losing my way. I can only ensure that now in my life that I will do the best that I can do. I can make no excuses as this is my life and my destiny. It’s scary for me as an adult, taking on many responsibilities I’ve never thought I would. I just pray for positivity and sanity…………

Words can’t describe how I feel when I hear your voice. The soothing sound, I long to hear. You are everything that I could hope for. Yet you don’t realize your potential. We could be a portrait of what love is. Your subtle features, against my revolving circle of love. Our potential love would bind so strong to withstand the barriers of love. I know not now, we don’t deserve this gift. It’s not our time to fall in love. Time is on our side. Within time however, we will be at the love our potential was set for.